"If you need to take a break, my house is always open. I'm not kidding. You can stay as long as you'd like whether its a couple weeks or a couple months. I want you to know how much I care about you and love you."
I'm gonna pray about that.
Maybe it'll be a good thing to take a break.

But my mom would never forgive me...

You're right.
It's all my fault our family's fucked up.
Because I'm a spoiled brat.
Because all I care about is myself.
Because I'm the one who starts all of the fights.
Because It's my fault we don't have any money.
All. My. Fault.

There, I admitted it.
Happy?

Why don't I ever have anything positive to say?

As if staying on the phone after he hangs up will change anthing...

Just because you push the memory way doesn't mean it'll stay away.

I love how right when everything is starting to turn out alright,
something (or someone) has to come back and slap me in the face.
It's really starting to piss me off.
I thought my past didn't matter anymore!
I made a mistake, I know.
But there's nothing I can do to fix it now.
And it (and you) coming back from the back of my head isn't gonna fix it either.

It's amazing how one little decision could screw up my life this much.

"Everyone deserves someone to talk to..."

I have never been this open to anyone before.
It's scary how everything just poured out of me.
I just hope this time it wasn't the wrong person to open up to.
I don't open myself up as much as I used to.

But I can only put on a brave face for so long...

"We all are born with a history already written out."

I need to remember that.
I do have a purpose for my life.
So I shouldn't try to rush anything for my pleasure.
Because it isn't really pleasure at all when you think about it.